I Am Like That

Assalamualaikum,

       Lately, there were a lot of things that I weren't satisfied of myself. I've myself acted like a brat. I've complained a lot of things even they were good for myself. I am very sensitive. Even with a slightest thing I can be sad. I get mad easily. I don't like it when people care about me because I fel like they were faking it. And mostly, I easily get mad with my parents. Sometimes, I would fire people with my harsh words. I only care about my feelings. I get bored easily. I even hate myself for nothing. I cried easily. I frequently think to myself that I was good for nothing. I want to disappear. I want to go far away from this place.
     
       I don't know why I am like this. Maybe it's because I've done a lot of sins. Yes, I am a sinner but I complained others. I don't want to hurt people around me. I've done enough. Now I'm holding myself in, so I won't hurt others and me myself.